Resolution after the stack, Thank you

Thank You Magic, and in particular Ray Robbilard. Very recently (like 2 days ago) my biological father was able to finally after searching and searching locate something that would lead to a series of connections for us to speak after 20 years. He located Magic, in particular the youtube video on the TMD that I took down. He said without a doubt he had finally found me because of the way I spoke, and looked and everything, he found a huge wealth of information in something so simple as a card game. Basically after time and time driving home from a doctor appointment I received a phone call that looked unfamiiliar, a man with a thick accent told me he had been trying to find me for years. In such a split second the emptiness that resided within me was being to be fulfilled and the lies unraveled. My life of demoralization from racial discrimination based upon me from others can finally be removed and the ignorance expelled. My entire previous life is fake because it was all based upon lies and deception. This also explains my extremely high tolerance to illicit substances and addiction used, the way I can be completely haneous to even Magic players because of the lack of positive reinformant and anger,

I apologize to anyone that may have hurt with the words i've said, I am a terrible individual, every thing I did to cause pain was a cry for help or recognition was jealousy at happyness or to try and fill my emptiness. which I never was given. my mother me from feeling she medicated me and locked away keys in a clouded mind ad the thought was itself horrendous. My mother lied and ruled me under the ideas that it was a violent case of rape and caused her pain when she thought about it (indirectly me causing pain every time she looked at me). But for once I would not console her for the terrible things that happended to her and I would normally say no it wasnt your fault, but I didnt. I unleashed all my rage I had been buiilding for years, because of her lies and deceit. I always made my mom a victim when it was exactly what she wanted. It was her fault and I wont give you pity because in your "selfless acts" and protection you desroyed and opressed her own sons life without any realization of it. She did not know what it was like to be shunned as a terrorist and having no way actually tellling them they were wrong, and the irrational fear of being taken from the population. A person cannot properly understand the world unless he really understands himself.

I would like to thank the magic community because Magic allowed me to create a new identity that I knew was true. It gave me at least some fulfilment in my search for closure. In the end it all allowed me to be on YouTube which is how my biological father knew without doubt that it was me. Thank you for filming my premonition which lead to the closure I always needed. You truly are one of my greatest heroes, Ray deserves more recognition for what he does for us. Hell the world, he is a member of society who's only function is to insert information (which he barely is able to differ from the curriculum) in a manner in which a student can understand. But I have seen him correcting papers while trying to run waterbury, he taught me an entire semesters calculas class in an hour and I 99'ed he final because of him and he didnt have to do it, but he did it because he is a great man, and now plan for a wedding which he really deserves all the happiness in the world. He has also influenced me to change career to politics or public speaking to try even as a single voice get teachers the recognition and the pay they deserve. Teachers shape how the world happens tomorrow, their like always having Future Sight out. Something so simple such as putting something on you tube could cause such a butterfly effect and give me resolution that i've been yourning for for years. Simple things we do may affect someone completely in another area. Pay attention to small things and appreciate them beause sometimes like a snowflake their here for a second, but a simple thing like closure may never actually true. Please everyone, pay attention to the small things and never let them assume they will be there, cause one day a Ninja riding a hurricane could swoop it up and harness the energy for himself. Life really is short and it needs to be savored. So thank you Ray for being the spark that started fire in the process of finding my father, thank you for being a great friend and mentor, you have changed my life in such a way that would take lifetimes to express and I owe you everything for me in starting my life. I believe everything that has happened couldnt been a good beginning for my lifes book, the first 20 years I was nothing and now I can become something. I believe the first 20 years is really the preamble to my lifes work of art, life with identity is something many take for granted, please dont know what I would have done for closure, if I won a 100mil and right when they gave me the big check someone said Justin, i'll trade you closure for that check I would have done it in a heart beat. Because no amount of money would have given me closure, the only thing was the truth.

Thank you to those that have touched me and bettered me for even a fewest of seconds. Influencing someone for a single second could change their entire lives without you even remotely knowing the affect. Thank you to magic for giving me an identity. Thanks to GGs because you cant spell Emo without a lyric about /cry. And thank you Ray, you really have shaped me and changed my life in a way you could never really know. Please let me do something for you, anything to show my appreciation. I hope you have the happiest life, cause you deserve it. I dont have much money cause of my soon move and totalled my car a few days ago because of medication sideeffects that werent suppose to happen. I dont know that I could ever show enough how thankful something so simple was and how life changing it was.

Thank you.

Justin Timoney

Chapter 1 Its Always Better when their Crying.............